I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living.
Something in me doubts that God is good. Or at the very least, He may not share His goodness with me.
I lean so heavily on what I remember James saying about trials and tribulations that when something great happens, I look around and wonder where it came from.
Surely not from God.
We’re in it with him to endure, right? We are running a marathon and marathons aren’t fun.
This kingdom building life is all about the struggle and the hurt and even the grief, and the good things? Well I guess I’ll just have to wait for heaven for the real beauty and for the real capital G Good things to show up.
But the fact is that God is Good with a capital G.
I remember a story my father tells of me when I was two and a half. We were in our old Datsun driving home from church. My father and mother had been in the process of trying to buy their first house, a cozy bungalow that would be just perfect for our family.
My mother was pregnant with my sister at the time and they needed to move out of the little apartment the 3 of us shared.
“If God is good to us then we’ll get this house, honey.” My father said to my mother as he turned the corner from church back to home.
Overhearing my parents like a good toddler does, I piped up from the backseat, “But God is good ALL the time, Daddy!”
And from the way my father tells and retells this story, he was faced with the goodness of God in a way he’d forgotten.
God is good when we are enduring the marathon of kingdom building (or trying to stretch and buy our first home) and God is also good when we are in the middle of it all and His goodness rains down like something we don’t even think we deserve.
But somewhere between age 3 and 38 I think I’ve forgotten about the goodness of God. It’s the faith of a child, I guess, that believes He is good if we get the house and He is good if we don’t.
Lord, help us not to lose faith in your Goodness. Help us to remember that you are Good all the time and that you are perfect in your goodness.
Do you ever doubt His goodness? Do you have trouble, like me, remembering He is Good all the time?