Finding A New Pace

by Lindsey

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We forged up the hill quickly, our conversation impeded by my labored breathing. We were climbing too fast but I’m not one to slow down. I go until I have to stop, then I go again harder this time, pushing my limits.

Push hard. Stop. Breathe. Push hard. Stop. Breathe.

As we hiked today I realized this pattern isn’t just how I tackle a mountain ridge but how I live my life. I keep an unsustainable pace until I am forced to succumb to my body’s undeniable need for respite.

Even as a child I saw hints of my crazy cycle emerging, but over the last few years, the ebbs and the flows have escalated dramatically.

With three jobs in three years, a move to California and back, eight international trips and dozens of domestic trips, and a role in launching this IF:Gathering thing, I’ve run and collapsed, run and collapsed, run and collapsed.

Push hard. Stop. Breathe.

These days I cannot seem to go hard enough. The once invigorating hustle now feels weighty and burdensome.

These days I can’t seem catch my breath. The once restful pause now feel restless and futile.

These days I feel weary and overwhelmed. I obviously need to find a new, more sustainable, way of living my life.

Maybe it’s time to find out if slow and steady does in fact win the race?  

 

9 Responses to “Finding A New Pace”

  1. Chris February 19, 2014 at 6:01 am #

    Slow, easy and steady. That is how you train a horse and that’s how you finish the race set before you. When I was in the Army I would easily beat out most of the men in the PT test because I stayed at an even 6:30 to 7:30 pace. Interestingly enough that was the pace I kept for my 5K, 10K, half marathon, marathon and Army 10 miler. Enjoy the pace and enjoy the moments. Breathe, relax, set your heart into and enjoy. I wrote an interesting post on this a while back at http://www.chrismalkemes.com/1/post/2013/05/its-not-a-run-its-a-walk.html You might enjoy it. Take your time….lol

  2. Shanna February 19, 2014 at 10:29 am #

    Did you just climb into my mind. ;) I’ve lately been pushing a pace, that I have pushed for years, and the past six months my body and mind are pushing back. I need a new pace…thank you for being real!

  3. Makeda February 19, 2014 at 10:37 am #

    I so resonate with your words. I have actually been thinking a similar thing about the pace of my own life. Thanks for sharing.

    • Lindsey February 19, 2014 at 2:46 pm #

      Anytime Makeda! It’s nice to know I’m not alone in this.

  4. Jessica February 19, 2014 at 3:11 pm #

    Love this.

    So, how does this slow & steady thing work?

  5. Tim Thurman February 19, 2014 at 10:09 pm #

    You do not have to prove anything to anyone, Lindsay. God loves you, even if you were not to do another thing. Rest in that. Trust in that. Stop striving. Stop stressing. Work hard, but the body, mind, and soul also need time for refreshment.

  6. Janice February 22, 2014 at 5:37 am #

    Beautifully said Tim. Lead out of rest vs adrenaline for The Lord your God does the work through you. When we are weak he is strong. I get you because I am you.

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