i found a lie inside my heart today.
it reeked of cleanliness and perfection.
that i’m better now,
that i’m better than i was.
another lie answered back
i found comfort in the familiarity of its grip
that i’m just as broken as before
and that i’ll always be
all these things i crave
that they’ll never leave
it reeked of cleanliness and perfection.
that i’m better now,
that i’m better than i was.
another lie answered back
i found comfort in the familiarity of its grip
that i’m just as broken as before
and that i’ll always be
all these things i crave
that they’ll never leave
i ache to agree
to choose my pain
but i ache greater to be at peace
all i know of lies
is that they distort the truth
all i know of truth
is that it is you
lost between
i resolve to know nothing
i remember i know nothing
but you
and
i remember where to find you
because i know where i am
we are between my heaven and hell
this?
this.
this is love.
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love. this.
Wow–did you read my journal this morning? This poem holds such universal truth in EVERY MAN’S SOUL—thank you for putting it to words.
Leann F
“…and I am faced
with a fury
so desperate and
meaningless and
I can’t fight this
fit of rage
that swells in my belly
and tells of more swells
that rush to the shore
to break down
and hush the hope
that tells my heart to want more
than this.”
Part of a poem I wrote a few days ago wrestling with this very thing. We think we’re so neatly packaged up, but just unwrap the bow and see the faults of folds and damaged goods. See that it is only possible to be beautiful – gift – through love.
Thanks for this.
I found this lie too. Is it inside all of us, or just some? The funny, the frustrating, the heartbreaking thing about it is that I find it again and again and yet each time, I hope it’s not true. And yet it is.
‘I’m just as broken as before’……I think I need to stop looking for the once-and-for-all-fix-it and keep kneeling and repenting and remembering His love.
Thankyou so much. I feel so much less alone for this.
This is wonderful. Sometimes I wonder what it would look like if we could see inside our souls completely and totally, and I wonder if it would be all lies or if we’d see nothing at all because God has taken over. Anywho….:P I love this.
Love it!!
Wow, thanks for posting this!
Stunning words of love.
lies are so familiar sometimes, we see it as the truth…
I cannot tell you how much I love this. It is EXACTLY what I needed to read today. Seriously. Thank you so much!
so true.