Our Father Who Art In Heaven, Please

by Micah

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Our father who art in Heaven, please
be on Earth as it is up there because I can’t do this on my own.
Help?

The words trip and fall off my tongue sincerely, but without eloquence.

Fitting, I suppose.

I’ve been tripping and falling through life without much eloquence lately.

I have no idea what I’m doing.
Help?

At once it is a bold declaration of trust in One greater than myself, and a confession of my own terrifying folly.
Am I doing this all wrong?

Father please…

The words trail off because I’ve run out of good ideas, including what to pray next. I hope He knows better than I do.

But I keep returning, returning, returning to ask again.

Father…

Not because He needs to be reminded nor begged, oh no.
I don’t think He’s like that.

But I –

I need to be reminded over and over again that in this stumbling and tripping and falling He is present, that this is what it is to walk by faith (I think).

I hope.

Our Father who art in Heaven, please

I already know that He is, and that He will, but still…
Ah, there’s the catch. I don’t do well at “still”. I do a lot better at chaos, swirling panic, grasping. Trying. Fearing that I’m alone.

And all I know is that there is no line between faith and fear; sometimes they’re the same thing all mixed together indistinguishable.

All I have is this.

Our father who art in Heaven, please
be here

8 Responses to “Our Father Who Art In Heaven, Please”

  1. Judy February 12, 2014 at 5:58 am #

    I have so been here. Life just deals blows that take your breath away, and all you can pray is Father, be here. That and Romans 8:26-27, the groanings too deep for words, and His grace that sometimes we don’t need to say what we pray for, just that we reach out for him. It reminds me of when my kids were babies and mama was the only word in their arsenal, but with just that one word, boy, could they convey a myriad of emotions.

  2. Dusty February 12, 2014 at 6:49 am #

    Chris Green’s sermon on prayer really speaks to this type of prayer. Mine is, “Lord, have mercy. Christ, have mercy.” Sometimes that’s all I’ve got.

  3. Caroline Starr Rose February 12, 2014 at 7:04 am #

    Yes.

  4. Sammy February 12, 2014 at 12:54 pm #

    Love the Bible verse!

  5. Allis Calm February 12, 2014 at 6:02 pm #

    “And all I know is that there is no line between faith and fear; sometimes they’re the same thing all mixed together indistinguishable.”

    I understand this so well.

  6. Diana Trautwein February 12, 2014 at 11:18 pm #

    Even just a single line from this prayer – or of the Jesus prayer – is sometimes all I’ve got. Breathing it out into the darkness and the fear and the fatigue. “Sometimes [fear and faith] are the same thing all mixed together indistinguishable.” Thank for for all of this, but especially for that gloriously true line.

  7. Chris Malkemes February 18, 2014 at 6:54 am #

    Oh! do I understand. I like what you did with that prayer.HELP!
    Just one thing missing: “holy is Your name.” The name He goes by means more than just the name, but it also reflects relationship. Creator means He is the creator, but it means He is my Creator. Lord means Keeper so He is my Keeper (The ancient English term for Lord was Master Keeper or he who keeps me employed, clothed, fed, ect.) When I start thinking about Him and what His names mean I find myself calming down and yielding. Trust me the yielding is not easy, but the first time you do it then something amazing happens. Because I’m not walking in so much fear He is able to reach me in a new way. I still find myself stumbling and falling, but in the falling He always picks me up.

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